(Written in 2nd person narrator)
the narrator is the higher self of charlie
who is speaking to you (the reader)
as if you are the character, Charlie)
The cocoon is complete. Soon you will be ready to shed your skin. There is nothing more here to taste that you have not already consumed. You can let go and relax now. You are coming to the end of this journey. It is time to discover the ‘REAL UNKNOWN’.
“What does that mean, it is time to discover the ‘REAL UNKNOWN’?” “There you go again with these perplexing statements.
All will unfold in Divine Order. There is nothing to fear. Just allow yourself to fall into the depths of the stillness within. You are ready to review all that you have experienced in this existence. You are ready to discover the journey within, where the real world exists. You are moving through a transition.to Breathe in deeply and exhale. Allow yourself to fall into the stillness as you listen to my voice, gently whispering, Be Here NOW, Be Here NOW, Be Here NOW. You are ready to remember that NOW is all there really ever was, ever is and ever shall be.
“What a second here! What the heck do you mean…Now is all there was, is and shall be? This is totally crazy! I mean you are not making any sense and it is beginning to scare me” I thought NOW is Now. What about the past and the future? As the saying goes, ‘The past is history and the future is always a mystery. How can you lump them all together?”
Don’t worry. There is nothing really to fear as long as you stay present in this NOW moment. For in the present, your intuition will guide you to where you need to go and what you need to do and learn. Remember everything exist in the NOW even the past and the future. In fact, nothing can truly exist outside the NOW.
“HOLD ON for one moment here! What do you mean, remember, that my past and future exist right now? How can my future and past exist NOW? What I know, is my past has already happened. It is fixed. And my future…. well, it hasn’t happened yet. It is out of my control and that is why it is so scary. AND BY THE WAY, how can I remember something I have never known? ” Maybe I am not ready for this transformation. This all seems scary and confusing to me.”
Okay, let’s take it slowly. When I say “remember” I am speaking about the parts of you that have already learned this. You have many parts within yourself and many of these parts have already learned this and still others are learning this as we speak. It will come back to you as you open up and allow things to gently unfold. Take another deep breath and return to the Now. Let’s take things one step at a time. Let’s look at the past in isolation. See our perception of past events at this moment, is what actually makes up our past or let’s say creates our past. In other words, our past is merely our perceptions of previous events, at this moment. Since the past is our perception of events, it is constantly changing as we change how we see ourselves and our past. Nothing is really fixed. It is all more fluid than you realize. As you grow and expand so does your present perceptions of these past events. You begin to see, feel and understand more about these events. You learn things from other perspectives. This allows your past to shift with you. The past is alive and so as you expand so does your past. It’s not that the events change, it is that how you see, feel and think about the events that allow these shadows to shift. Events are not good or bad they are just consequences that you experience based on your choices. How you perceive and judge these events is what causes you to want to either move through them or to get stuck in them. So as you expand your perceptions of these type of cycles or patterns, which were created in the past, you open up to more choices in the present which in turn opens up more future possibilities. All your past choices and the choices of your ancestors, as well as the mass conscious choices, created your present moment. Since your present moment was created by your past choices you can easily see that the Present choices will create your future possibilities. Everything is interconnected and everything is fluid. Your past and future possibilities are shifting all the time in the Now. Each time you make new choices or learn new things your past, present and future possibilities all shifts in the NOW. As you accept the responsibility for creating these events and begin to forgive yourself as well as others, you begin to learn what these experiences were teaching you. Once you learn the lessons you break free of that looping cycle. This allows you to be more present, which in turn allows you to focus more of your consciousness to the Present Now so you can make more conscious choices. You become more aware, more alive and more expanded and so does your world around you.
“Oh…I’m starting to remember something. You are beginning to sound like this grasshopper I once met. His name was Jung. He sees with ‘a thousand eyes’ so to speak and this allows him to see the bigger picture. He was trying to teach me something about the past and future is all interconnected. He said something about the moon looks like it is going through waxing and waning stages. But really the moon is always there we just don’t see parts of it from our present angle or view. Even though the moon is always present, some of its aspects and effects may be hidden behind a veil or shadow at different parts of the cycle. Like the moon, we also have cycles where parts of ourselves are hidden and this may change how we see the world day to day. As we expand our view, we see more of the whole and likewise when we contract we see less.”
Yes indeed, Jung is a very wise teacher. Okay, I am glad you are beginning to see that the past, present, and future are all interconnected. Now let’s go a little deeper to see how they are connected. Jung has laid a good foundation for our dialogue to begin.
Let’s build on the thought, the past is your perceptions of events in this Now moment, by looking at how these perceptions of events are stored in your body. See these emotional memories are not merely stored in your brain, as some think, they are actually stored and communicated throughout your entire body by way of emotions. Emotions are energy in motion. They are the chemicals that move us along. Every part of your body is communicating with other parts of your body by way of emotions. When you are not able to move through your emotions they become trapped in the parts of your body. Once they become trapped they create blockages…like roadblocks and they are then imprinted in your body. This causes you to forget or distort past memories. You compress, condensed or shrink, so to speak. It also shuts these parts of the body off from communicating with the rest of the body. This part of the body is isolated from the whole and so it forgets its purpose. The memories and messages that are supposed to be carried throughout the body become trapped in the body. These trapped imprints then create cycles of energy waves emitting out of your body, attracting drama into your life or creating diseases in order to get your attention. If you continue to block these emotional imprints they get louder and louder. Eventually, if these blockages are not dealt with they are passed down through the generations through DNA coding. The actual event itself is no longer important, it is the spiritual, emotional and physical body imprints that affect your lives and the world around you. This is why different people who experienced the same event have totally different perspectives and it affects them in totally different ways. You experience the world through your mind, body, spirit, and emotions in each moment based on how fluid or condensed you are inside.
“Oh, wow…this is some heavy information. You don’t waste any time, do you? Am I really ready for all of this? I think I need to take another deep breath. So let me see if I understand what you are saying. Not only is the past, present, and future all happening right Now, but the past is also fluid and changeable? And the future possibilities expand and contract based on where I am in this Now moment. Is that right?
Yes, that is right.
“And the past is stored in my body?”
Yes, on one level the past is carried onward in your body. But it is a little bit more complicated. We are weaving around a very big subject. See everything has more than one body.
“WHAT? How can I have different bodies? You aren’t making sense”, I am starting to go out of the only body I know.”
Well, we have one physical body, but we also have an emotional body, a mental body, and a spiritual body. These bodies are energy fields. Everything is made of energy.
“Now this is so interesting, cause I am putting things together with what Jung told me. I was struggling with trusting myself and my life. My path had gotten a bit scary. He said my fear was keeping me from seeing the bigger picture. I didn’t know what he was saying at the time. It just didn’t make sense cause I thought I was very observant. He went on about how there is more to this world than most can see and there are some things you can only feel and still other things you can only experience by going within because they are beyond our senses. He told me the more I calm I am on the inside the more aware I become to my surroundings. I think he was saying we use different bodies to understand different things or understand different aspects of the same thing. I am now realizing that in this state of stillness many things are beginning to make sense to me. Is this what Jung was trying to tell me. In the stillness, our answers come flowing in and we remember? Is it because the stillness we connect more deeply to all the other bodies? ”
Yes, that is exactly true. See you are remembering. Now let me go back to how these emotional blockages create genetic imprints. When beings are born the memories that are stored in their parent's bodies, (all of their bodies) have energetic imprints that get passed down into the child’s body through a unit of heredity genes. Now the child will deal with these genetic imprints of their ancestors as if they are their own.
“I didn’t know my parents, as most of my friends knew theirs. You see, I just remember hatching from an egg.”
Yes, you are more evolved in that area. So it was not necessary for you to know your parents in order to know yourself. You were born with more self Identity but even though you did not know your family, you were still imprinted with your ancestor's genetics. Their lessons became your lessons and that was part of the foundation for the beginning of your life.
“I guess that is true because I met this friend Leo the Lion. He lost himself when he was separated from his family. His trauma began when his sister was born. He thought his parents loved her better than him and so he ran away. While he was away these humans who are called hunters captured his family and took them away. When Leo returned to his den a friend of his told him the story about how the father went looking for him and when he returned his family was missing. When his father tried to investigate more hunters came and took him away as well. Leo was so distraught he ran away from the pride and being so angry he didn’t see a massive hole ahead of him. The hole was covered with limbs and leaves. Leo feel into the deep hole and injured his leg. He was unable to climb out so for two days or more he laid in agony and despair until the hunters returned and took him away. They put him in a prison where other humans came to mock him. Did all of this happen to Leo because he felt like his parents abandoned him and that set off chain events that caused him to abandoned them too and did this ultimately lead him to his prison? Was this all self-created?”
Well it is part of the reason but things are more complicated than that. You see abandonment is a Universal fear that all must overcome. From the moment anyone is created or born a sense of loss is felt. It is called “Separation From Source.” This separation feels like a death. In a sense, it is a death because it is leaving the All or Oneness. But it is also like a birth, a new beginning, and becoming an individual. Likewise the same can be said when beings leave this world. It is like death from being the individual and a rebirth into uniting with the All. For there is truly no beginning and no end. It’s like a circle or rather continuing cycles. But let’s stay with this part of your story. Well, come back to this in a bit later in more detail. You are remembering much more and that is helpful to other parts within you that a bit confused.
“Ok well for years Leo’s grief festered and slowly he began to shut his body down and that’s when I met Leo. I heard this very sad and very loud moaning sound like someone who was in great pain and suffering. I crept over to see where this powerful sound was coming from when i saw this humongous animal sobbing behind bars. I was quite astounded by the vulnerability of this huge and rather strong courageous looking animal. The sounds just didn’t match his appearance. I will never forget Leo’s face when I first introduced myself. He was astounded by my bravery for such a tiny animal. He later said that my courage didn’t fit my size. We both laughed and laughed when I shared my first impression of him. Anyway, from the very beginning I knew our relationship was going to be very special. It didn’t take me long to realized that the greatest gift I could offer Leo was the sense of trust so I was gentle and I never pushed him to talk about himself. However one day he finally opened up and told me how he was beginning to trust me. He said if I could trust and believe that he wouldn’t hurt me even though he was this enormous and strong animal then surely he could trust me, the tiny and meek Charlie.”
Yes, trust must be built to earn the right to know others on the deepest and most intimate level. You had already learned this lesson with many others before and now you were teaching Leo.
“Yes, I get that. Well, for many days, I stayed by his side telling him stories about all of my adventures and the friends I had met along my path. I’ll never forget the day when I felt like I had earned his trust enough to ask him how he came to be in this prison. The thing that stuck out the most in my mind, out of all his trauma, was how much he regretted being jealous of his sister. He just couldn’t forgive himself for being so mad at his parents and for running away. He was also very angry at the humans who brought him here. “
At first, Leo seemed to feel better sharing his story. I thought it might be helpful for him to have someone to listen to. However, as time went on I started feeling very uncomfortable. I realized that Leo wasn’t getting better he was getting angrier at himself and the humans. In fact, the more he relieved and retold his story, the madder at himself and others he became. I felt responsible so I told him, as much as I hated to leave him I really thought it was best because I was also starting to lose hope and I felt like I was becoming a part of the problem.
That’s when Leo began to wail in the deepest soul-wrenching agony. He roared and roared and told me I was also abandoning him. I didn’t know what to do. I started crying too. I started feeling like his story was my story. I felt like I was losing myself in his pain. Why do you think his patterns were affecting me so much? Is this what you mean about how our vibrations affect the world around us? But how can these patterns that are stored in our bodies move out into the world?” That seems so weird.”
Well, you remember I said everything is energy and everything is interconnected? Remember, you have a physical body that appears solid, a mental body that appears invisible like gas and an emotional body that is fluid like liquids. Each of these bodies carries an energetic patterning of you. All of these patterns of energy create energetic waves that are held together by your spirit. Although like a gas, the spirit cannot be seen, the spirit is the higher connection to everything in this world and the world beyond. In other words, the spiritual body is what connects all the other bodies and the oversoul, or higher self to the entire world. So if you are a part of everything then, of course, everything is also a part of you. Everything you do, feel, the experience is felt by everything and everyone on many levels. Your higher consciousness expands and affects everything even beyond the Earth, the planetary systems, even out into the entire Universe. I am sure if you search within yourself you could feel a similar emotional experience that relates to Leo’s.
“Wow, I never knew we were all that powerful. That is a huge responsibility and it’s so scary! Is this why we are all walking around being scared. We are afraid of our own power? Cause this is scaring me to death. I think Leo was trapped because he was afraid of his own power. On some level, he must have known that his actions cause rippling effects to his world. Maybe not consciously but on some level so he attracted imprisonment. Maybe he also knew his anger was too big at the time for him to control. So he chose to sit in it until he was strong enough to face it. ”
Yes, it is definitely why beings are afraid here on Earth. Everyone and everything knows on some level they are all powerful but they block this power because they are not ready to take responsibility for it and yes on many levels they don’t want to harm themselves or others. As you become more aware, you begin working on being more conscious of our choices and how they affect others. However, on Earth there is a forgetting vortex that surrounds everyone and everything. So it is hard to stay awake. This forgetting vortex helps the individual to focus on certain lessons instead of on everything at once. But it can be very hard to stay aware of who you are and what you are meant to learn and share with the world.
Things expand and contract according to what is needed to learn and according to the level of connection one needs with others and one needs individually. Both expansion and contraction are needed in order for us to grow gently and to understand ourselves and our world. As each individual consciousness expands and contracts so do everything else in life. Also, the same thing is happening in the collective consciousness as well. And all of these energetic cycles affect everything. Everyone and everything is not only individually powerful they are also very powerful as a part of the collective. Everyone also has their own free will to make their own choices and they have their own lessons to learn. So that’s a lot to come together. Sometimes there are clashes with all these choices and desires mixing around when this happens we create storms. These storm patterns can slow create a need to pause so that everyone can figure out what is important in life. All of these ripples of changes are created with each thought, feeling, and choice that is made.
“Now you are really confusing me on so many levels and I thought I was doing good traveling with you. Can you explain how this works? I mean I know we are repeating things because I have experienced cycles upon cycles of the same patterns but somewhere along the line this expanding and contracting is confusing me. Although on another level, I see it as being helpful because it seems to give me time to process and absorb more of what you are saying. It also reminds me to take deep breaths. I guess it also helps because we covered things from different angles and I get to move in and out to see from these different angles. Does that make sense? I mean I think I am sort of answering my own question.”
Yes, it certainly does. You have to unwind yourself the way you wind yourself up. It is like winding around a tree to get to the top. You don’t crawl straight up the tree because it would be too hard and steep. So by winding around and around you get to experience a more gradual climb. You experience the cycle or pattern again but from a little bit higher perspective. You may feel like you are going backward like you are returning to the very same place. You might think, “oh I have been here before so why am I repeating the same things.” But really you are a bit higher on the cycle. Also, there are more parts of you that are waking up and understanding this. Some parts are more confused than others. That’s why it is important to be gentle with yourself.
“Okay let me return to my story here. Right when I was preparing to leave Leo, Phoenix, the Praying Mantis, appeared out of nowhere. Phoenix introduced himself to us like he was some kind of messenger. I don’t know why but I instantly opened up to him. Leo was a little standoffish at first but he definitely trusted Phoenix more than when he met me. Maybe because there were now two of us. At first, Leo didn’t want to share his story. He didn’t want to create deeper sadness. So I told Phoenix that Leo had a very traumatic experience of abandonment and that abandonment created massive anger which ultimately leads him to be trapped in this prison. “
Phoenix said that the understood and that is why he was summoned. He also went on to say that Leo was experiencing the “Dark Night of the Soul”. We didn’t know what that meant and I am sure our faces showed it. So Phoenix explained it as the soul’s cry for help. When a soul can no longer find any outside relief or temporary fixes and it feels lost and is in despair. The deep abandonment engulfs the very breath and then there is nothing to do except surrender its will to the higher will. This is a signal that a major transformation is moving in. Pheonix went on to say, that Leo was ready to rise out of the ashes of despair and move into the light.
Next Phoenix asked Leo if he would allow himself to truly return to the event and learn the lessons that he originally blocked then he would be lead to the question of how he got in this prison so he then could get out. Leo’s eyes seemed to have a faint ray of hope but also a wave of confusion was written on his face. As if Phoenix understood Leo’s anxiety he went on to explain that if Leo went into the memory with the intention to feel it and consciously move through it then the door would open for his body to let go of the trauma. Phoenix added that as Leo feels the pain his body and his heart will open up to forgiveness. Leo finally understood and agreed. Phoenix said the first thing, to do, is begin with a prayer. So he taught us how to pray. He said it is easier to pray if we closed your eyes and be still”. He said to focus our attention on your breath as in moves in and out. Now I am seeing that he was saying the same thing you told me. How is this happening when just a little bit earlier I didn’t think I knew any of this?”
Remember I said there are parts of you that learned this and have healed this before but there are parts that need a little bit of help now. That is what this review is all about. Studying and remembering so you can understand. Forgetting and remembering is all about growing. You have to forget some things so that you can learn the information from another angle. If you remember that you knew it then you would not be able to see it from another view. You would hold onto that perspective. Forgetting allows you to shift focus to expand your vision and your compassion. You have heard all of this information from many creatures and many times. As you begin to remember more it allows you to relax more and trust the flow. This is all meant to be gentle. Remember you are the one creating this and therefore you are the director of how it unfolds.
“Oh thank you for saying that I really needed to hear that. I am remembering! I feel myself calmly down more and more as we move along. Yes, it definitely helps to know that this is not new information. Well, Phoenix went on to say, “calm yourself by watching your breathing.
Then Phoenix helped Leo travel back to his past in his mental, emotional and spiritual bodies to the moment when his sister was born. In a trancelike state, Leo told us what was happening as if it was happening in that very moment. He shares the entire vision with us. The first thing he saw was the sweetness of his sister's face. He loved that face but he was deeply afraid of that face. He watched the joy on his parent's faces. He saw sparks of light in their eyes in a much different way than they had for him. Tears ran down Leo’s face as he recalled the scene. Leo thought that meant that they loved her more. He saw that she was different from him so he thought that meant she must be better. He felt his younger self’s paint and he felt his anger. His younger self felt very abandoned and unloved. He didn’t like this new baby that was stealing his parents away from him. Leo watched his little self running away in agony with tears streaming down his face and anger in his heart. The Leo said the scene shifted to him at an older age. He was picking on his sister and his parents got mad at him so he ran away to lick his wounds. When he came home his father scolded him for going past the boundaries that he had set for Leo. He had never seen his father so angry. His father told him that there were humans that were not kind and they had been known to kill or capture members of their pride. He ran off again but this time he did not go past the boundaries. He cried out for help. But no help came and once again Leo felt abandoned. When he returned he saw his parents playing with his sister. He did not join in.
This pattern continued, over and over Leo felt jealous of his sister and so he would tease her. Then his parents would get mad at him. They didn’t treat him the same way they had before his sister was born and he hadn’t acted the same way. He was angry all the time and he never remembered feeling that way. He knew it must have been her fault. Each time Leo got into trouble he would run away to lick his wounds.
To our surprise, we heard Leo’s adult self whisper to his inner child self, “I AM here… I AM here. You are loved.” He said this over and over as he roars with deep pain. Phoenix and I saw tears traveling down Leo’s face. Finally, after a little while, the tears slowed. Leo stopped talking to us and he acted like he was in a deeper trance. Later Leo told us that he had seen and felt his younger self-pain. So he rocked him back and forth saying “I AM here, over and over.
The next thing we heard was Leo screaming with the loudest roars of all. Deep wailing sobs. Over and over as if someone was truly dying a thousand deaths. Leo said over and over, I am sorry. I am sorry. We knew that he was at the core of his pain. He was feeling the deep blockage he had avoided when he was young. He had been too young to feel this much pain. But now he was ready to feel the loss of his family. We watched as the painful roars slow down and the tears dried up. It was just like a rainbow was moving in. Leo’s eyes sparkled and his face seemed to smile the most delicate of smiles. Then we heard a sweet whimper of cries of relief and we saw more tears. But these fall gently down his face. Time seemed to stand still. It was like Leo went even deeper. Not a sound could be heard around us. We were captivated by the stillness. It was all consuming but also freeing. A light began to glow and it was coming from Leo. He opened his eyes and smiled and then he said, “guess what happened?” I had no idea but I think Phoenix already knew.
Leo told us that he was transported back to his sister’s birth. But this time he heard his parents say in the most tender and sweetest voices, “our family is now complete because we have been given two of the most wonderful and most precious gifts of the world! Each is different and unique but both are equally loved.” He hadn’t remembered hearing that before and he wondered how he had blocked that special memory from his mind. Those few words, he said, had meant everything to him. He told us if only he had heard that his parents loved him as much as his sister then everything would have been different.”
Why didn’t he remember that? Wouldn’t that have changed everything if he had? How can something so small have changed all the pain? Hmmmm. I never thought of this”
What did you learn?
Well, I didn't understand everything that Phoenix said to Leo at the time. He said something about how forgiveness, which was the greatest soul gift, and how it freed the heart and it uncovered more veils off of the soul. Phoenix then asked Leo who he thought he needed to forgive. Leo thought for a moment and then said, he needed to forgive himself acting out and for running away and the humans for capturing his family and putting him in prison. Then Phoenix smiled a big smile and rub his front legs together and said, “let us pray. “ Phoenix taught us how to pray and how to use these prayers to help Leo release the pain in his heart. Now that I think about it I was learning right there through pray, that we are all connected. As we prayed Leo said his heart began opening even wider and he said he felt much lighter. Even though he was still in that prison he felt the sunshine, for the first time in a long time, shining on his face. He didn’t feel so alone. Phoenix said that he was rising from the ashes of transformation. By going back to his past and actually allowing himself to feel the pain with his younger self, he was able to feel and see things he had he blocked the first time.
Phoenix said that he had blocked the pain in the past because he was not equipped to feel it yet. HIs anger and despaired were too much for his young body to move through.
This is all making so much sense now. I didn’t understand it all back then like I am beginning to now. I remember Leo saying he didn’t feel the same about his past, at least the part with his parents and his sister. He didn’t feel the anger when he thought of what happened. He also said he had forgiven himself for running away which caused his father to go after him which lead the family not to be fully supported when the humans came. He thanked and thanked us. I told Leo I hadn’t done anything. Phoenix should get all the thanks. But then Phoenix said that I had done something. He said I had held love around Leo so that he had the strength to dive into his wounds. Then Leo said yes, I knew I had a protective light around me the entire time. And he thanked us profusely. Phoenix was on to tell us the coolest thing of all. He said that the biggest and brightest parts of that light were Leo himself, his adult self, holding love and light around the child Leo. Phoenix went on to say that Leo was the one that summoned him there. When he was ready to face his pain he pulled in messengers and healers but it was all coming from him and his love. Leo jumped up and that is when he told us about how he had heard his younger self cry for help and he pulled him into his arms and rocked him back and forth telling him he was there. He was loved. Both Leo and I were in awe. Speechless.
Although Leo was not yet freed from his eternal prison, he was freeing himself internally. I felt that it was an honor to have been able to witness this part of his journey to forgiveness.
What did that tell you? What did you understand about his healing journey?
“Although he was ready to forgive himself and his parents because he was able to dive into his pain. I noticed that his emotional journey did not include the part about the humans capturing his family and taking him to live into the prison. He might not have been strong enough yet. Like maybe he needed some rest and perspective from this healing. Time to digest the mistruths he had held so long in his body. “
Yes, it can be like weaving a tapestry of your life, one thread at a time. Sometimes you make mistakes in your tapestry and so you have to pull out these mistakes and weave these parts again.
“Ahhh that reminds me of another friend of mine, Charlotte was a spider. She was one of the most intelligent of all animals and she wasn’t any bigger than me. Oh...wow. I never realized that before. Guess big things can come in small packages. You know spiders weave their web and she taught me that story about weaving the web of life. See she said that we have to be patient and wait for things to come to us. Charlotte taught me that all we have to do to manifest what we need is to weave our dreams and intentions into t web and then let go and watch everything we need to move into us. She said we are keepers of our own destiny. We pull near what we fear and what we want to create all by our intentions. This is crazy how I am remembering all of what you have been helping me learn. This is really really crazy. “
So why do you think you remembered the story about Charlotte right now?
“I guess because I worried a lot about Leo at the time. If he was ever going to heal his issues with the humans. But now I see that when he is ready he will attract another teacher or healer. This Charlotte story reminded me of that. “Yes, I truly am seeing so much right now that I already knew. Hmm this is so interesting. “
Yes, when you are ready to remember you will. Let’s simplify and review things a little bit. What did this experience teach you?
“Well okay…Let’s say something happens to someone and they don’t feel empowered to safely move through an event on an emotional level, like Leo when he was very young. He might have felt too fragile or too weak to move through his pain so he shut down his emotions to stop himself from having to feel the pain. When he shut his emotions down, parts of him dissociated from the experience and contracted within his body. These blockages were created in All of his bodies, his mental, emotional, physical and spiritual bodies. When he was ready to heal he attracted the help he needed just like Charlotte taught me.“
Very good! Now that you understand so much let’s add just a little bit to what you already remember. When you allow your emotions to flow freely throughout the body you create homeostasis and balance. When this occurs your body is open and communicating. However, if you shut your emotions down, the memories are frozen so to speak in the part of the body that is associated with the stuck emotions of these past events. You are no longer able to communicate with this part of the body. This splintered part, so to speak, does not emotionally and mentally move on with you in a fluid way. Not consciously at least. It is locked away and is unable to expand. It is like you bury feelings in your body and push them into your unconscious mind. The cells in this part of the body will eventually begin to forget what they are meant to do in which case it can cause a disease to move in. As the meaning of the word states “dis” ease means “no ease”. Life no longer flows with ease. These trapped dissociated parts just keep cycling around and around like being on a merry-go-round, repeating the same lessons and sometimes even with the same people although not always. Without these splintered parts you contract and become smaller and denser, less aware. With less of you to manifest and less awareness, you begin to see fewer options, fewer choices. You feel stuck, compressed, and depressed. Your vision of the world around you, contracts as well. It may feel like the world is contracting on top of you or that you have tunnel vision.
“Wow, there is more going on in this little body than I thought. I mean I have been expanding and shedding many different skins throughout my life. I have traveled the world over and I have also learned from so many different creatures. Yet here I am now, even in this cocoon, still learning and expanding. This is a lot for this little creature to take in. This I am not so sure of! I mean, yes, I have learned a lot from my travels and I have learned a lot from everyone I've met? But I am just me….Charlie, a very small and too many, an insignificant meek creature. How could I have already learned all of that? And if I did why am I starting to get overwhelmed. It feels like my body is getting tight and compressing.”
Yes, I understand your anguish. It happens when we move a bit too fast. Remember you are the conductor of your experiences. When you want to slow down all you have to do is take another deep breath and allow your experiences to rise up gently. Just relax and watch your breath go in and out. None of this is new, as I said, you have learned this from so many angles and therefore it will all come together like a puzzle, piece by piece. You could not be here in this very spot, in this very moment, had you not learned and been ready to move onward. Be gentle and know that you learn through movement and rest. Just like the songbirds sing melodies. The music is comprised of movements and rests. Remember, size has nothing to do with awareness. Look at all these friends that have already taught you that. You have learned this from the up and from the down, from here and there, from inside and outside, from now and then, from victim to villain, from female to male, from top to bottom, and from every living creature big and small. Now let’s take a moment, deep breaths in and out. Allow the nurturing energy to move over you. You may not have had a life with a nurturing mother but you attracted these experiences from others. When you take big steps it is always good to stop, nurture and appreciate your spirit, mind, and body.
“Yes, I have learned this from many different animals. Right now as I am taking deep breaths I recall a very special meeting with a sweet robin fledgling, Andrew but he liked to be called Andy, which truly fit him better. He had the most beautiful voice I have ever heard and we became friends even though we should have been enemies.”
“It all began when I first met Andy, he was having the most difficult time learning to fly, unlike his brothers and sisters who caught on very quickly. His father had pecked him into the bushes to protect him from predators. Before his father left to gather food he told Andy not to leave that spot or surely he would be eaten by someone who would consider him their food. Andy was trembling and I have to admit at that moment I began to get scared too because I had already learned that I am food for birds and Andy looked at me with hungry eyes. So I decided right then and there that I had better bring up the subject. I told Andy I understood the fear of getting eaten. I too was food for others, in fact, I said I am food for you. Andy agreed. He told me that right at that very moment his father was out looking for worms and caterpillars for their supper. I knew I better have a good reason for him not eating me. I told him that it would be to his greater advantage not to eat me and he asked why. I told Andy that my journey had taught me that there are higher things to consider than just our next meal. I told him that I used to only be concerned about what I was going to eat next. However, I finally learned that sometimes we receive more nourishment not consuming things but rather in sharing our truths. He thought that was weird. So I quickly added, that sometimes we can use our own individual energies together to create synergy. He had never heard of that word. I felt a little bit smarter at that moment. I swiftly continued by telling him that what we needed at a certain moment might be the very thing the other one has. Then I realized that wasn’t good enough because he was hungry and I could be his food. So once again I tried to explain my thoughts. I expanded by saying both can become stronger when they blended their energies with others instead of just consuming them. Trying to elaborate a bit more I offered, when we each maintain who we are and we allow ourselves to share our perspectives through mutual respect, we can expand our consciousness. Just then I noticed Andy’s eyes sparkle like a light bulb turning on. I didn’t know if that was because he had decided I was going to be his dinner or that he was beginning to understand what I was trying to say. Not waiting to find out which one it was I descended back into my thought. I told him that when I first got there he was so afraid. “