Marilla Goddess of the Ocean

“Thousands have lived without love, not one without water.” ~ W. H. Auden


 Marilla, Goddess of the Ocean

Marilla, Goddess of the Ocean

“We all need to wake up and heal our Oceans.”

It is my honor to share my thoughts about this sweet painting that came through me. Once the idea came to me I was overjoyed with bringing the vision onto the canvas. My anticipation and enthusiasm level was so very high. Yet every time I thought of her there was no movement from my mind into my heart. I knew I needed to wait until the energy in my heart moved me. Even after finishing the background I still had to wait months for the energy to rise up within me. I was aware that this journey would include my own internal emotional healing as well as my healing prayers for the ocean.

Here in Sarasota, Florida we have been experiencing a whole new level of what is referred to as Red Tide situation. Red tide is caused by an organism called Karenia brevis, which occurs naturally in the waters off Florida. Blooms regularly occur off the state's Gulf coast, but they are rare on Florida's Atlantic side. According to the National Oceanic and Atmospheric Administration (NOAA) researchers have called this red tide "unusually persistent." Although Red Tide has been around since at least the 1500 when Spanish explorers documented what seemed like the same killing algae, I believe it doesn’t take a scientist to tell me that the reason it is spreading and booming larger and stronger is because of the run off fertilizers. Florida’s sprawling sugar cane industry, which is south of Lake Okeechobee, accounts for almost half of the nation’s sugar can industry and the phosphate mining north of the lake supplies three-fourth of the phosphate used in the country. So it makes sense right? Fertilizers help plants grow. With vast growth of this algae tons of marine life are being killed every single day and it has been doing this for well over a year. It feels like a ghost town.

When my husband and I moved to Sarasota one year ago, we thought we were going ;to enjoy the serenity of the most beautiful beaches of the world. But today it is anything but that. I am completely devastated by the death toll. Tons and tons of beautiful fish, turtles, crabs, ells manatees and dolphins line the beaches and the stench and feeling of death penetrates your body into your soul. Even the birds have vanished from sight. Death is the word I would use to describe it the local beaches.

Not knowing how I could help, I decided to create a series of ocean paintings to offer my love in the way of healing prayers. So this was the first one of the series.

Even as a very young child, I have always been drawn to the beauty and power of the ocean. Today, I realize the ocean not only brings us peace and joy it also feeds us and gives us 70 % of the planets oxygen from her vast variety of marine plants. She is also home for more marine life than we even know. We have barely touched the surface of knowing all that the Oceans give to mankind yet this is how we treat her in return. We can no longer dig our heads in the sand. This is a problem we must correct. Our future depends on it.

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Iolana ~ "Soaring Bird" ( Love Gives Life Within)

I FINALLY MADE IT TO HAWAII!

Pictures are a thousand words but seeing in person goes beyond a thousand pictures.

My daughter just graduated from college with Summa Cum Laude honors and she got a job at Disney so to celebrate my husband and I took her on a trip to Hawaii. Fourteen years ago, I was  headed to Hawaii for my 20th Anniversary but not long before we were to leave my husband gave me another option,
to redo our 1950's bathroom and add a sunroom along with a diamond wedding ring (When we got married we were so young and broke so we used my grandmother's ring instead. I will add here that I got a beautiful one for my 25th anniversary).  So being the practical person I am I chose to let Hawaii go, at least for a while. However I must say, it was not an easy decision and with it came some big heartache, (some wailing and some big fights). "I mean after all, it's Hawaii. Isn't that everyone's dream?"
 So this is why it was a REALLY, REALLY BIG DEAL FOR ME to come to the land of Paradise.

"I mean after all,
it's Hawaii.
Isn't that everyone's dream?" 

But I will say, Hawaii never stopped whispering to me. Finally her voice became my voice and then my daughter's as well, it wasn't long before Hawaii spoke even to my husband. Can you hear her calling?
Be still and listen.

"Can you hear her calling?" 

Having less than a week to spend in Hawaii, we decided to focus our trip on Maui. We were NOT disappointed! Maui truly lives up to everything I ever heard about it. It is as close to paradise that a place on this Earth can be. I mean it is gorgeous! Of course, I know that we bring ourselves wherever we go, so no place can take away our troubles but it can help us get in touch with ourselves on a deeper level so things in our life can be put in their proper perspectives.
Maui gave me a gentle reminder to slow down and observe, for everything is created from the inside out.  

"Maui Time."

 

Here are some fun pictures of our adventures. Horseback riding, snorkeling, sightseeing and good food. 

  We are leaving Maui with many wonderful memories! O'Hana, we are all ONE family and Earth is our home. 

We are leaving Maui with many wonderful memories!
O'Hana, we are all ONE family
and Earth is our home. 

Here is a short video showing my process and the inspiration. 

Beautiful spiritual moments in Maui. 

The Gorgeous Maui Skylines.

O'Hana, we are all ONE family
and Earth is our home. 

So many adventures so many good times.

"Here is my interpretation
of the inspiring land of gentle transformation. "

 

I designed the painting around the four elements, (earth, wind, fire and water) which connects everything and everyone. My hope is to connect the heart and mind with a feeling of Oneness.

I chose the name Iolana for the Hawaiian girl because it means "soaring bird" which has always been the image we associate with freedom or transformation. Since birds have the ability to fly above they can see life from a higher perspective. I also chose to add the title "Love Gives Life Within" because it is a Hawaiian saying that I think best sums up my experience on Maui. It opens the heart and nudges us to go within. Although our body has 5 senses our soul connects us through our intuition, peace, trust and empathy. We have to learn to trust what our soul sees and feels. It is our inner knowing. We have 7 chakras or 7 spiritual doorways. Each has a meaning and a connection to everything. We learn through these doorways. This painting is my attempt to share my soul connection to Hawaii.
 
I don't always want to share my inspiration or interpretation of a painting because I want the viewer to find their own message but this one wanted to be heard so I will try to share my story. As you can see, Iolana, is shown  not only blending in with the environment she is one with it. I tried to create a harmonious connection to everything around her. Even with a brewing storm and fire blazing in her hands, she isn't knocked off of her center. She is at peace with all that is.

I will begin at her crown and go down to the root but then I will connect back to the seagull, who represents freedom. There are 7 Plumerias representing the 7th chakra called the crown chakra. The Plumerias are gently flowing into the waves of emotional transformation (reminding us to allow the emotions to flow effortlessly even in the midst of the storms of life).The green lei around her neck is flowing and connecting her throat down through the heart chakra and on to the root. It represents the healing power of the throat and heart chakras which connects us to our root and then with the world. When we are able to lovingly speak our truth and open the heart we can hear the world around us as well. Next you can see that Iolana is holding the flames of a blazing fire which connects the control chakra (our will) and sacral chakra (our sexual and creativity chakra). This is where our passions and desires create our world.. It is also the place that allows us to burn up and heal our karma  (the healing of ancestral, childhood, and sexual wounds). Three red flowers are seen below the fire, representing the trinity of life and the transformation of the father, the mother and the child. From here we can pull our attention to Iolana's grass skirt. You can easily see that her skirt is blending in with the sand. This symbolizes her her grounded presence with the Earth and her root chakra which is also known as the foundation chakra. When we are grounded within ourselves we are grounded with our world. And lastly but definitely not  least, the seagull is soaring right above her head and the crashing waves which is a symbol of freedom even in midst of chaos. Freedom is not only a state of mind, it is our soul's birthright. We are the ones who imprison ourselves so it is up to us to set ourselves free. However remembering this is a journey and it takes as long as it takes.  But when are ready to remember with all our chakras , it can be only one breath away. 

A couple of my never ending lessons of life!

"Transformation is the journey of life,
it is not the destination." 

"Nothing ever stays the same." 

"Be still and know ALL is exactly as it IS...
there is no hurry,
unless you want it to be."

 
"This too shall past."

"It takes as long as it takes."


"The light cannot exist without the dark. 
Neither Are good or bad
but rather two poles of the balance of unity." 

 

I had so much fun with "Seeing From The Inside Out"

When you are ready to feel, it you can heal it. 

The background of this painting was inspired by an online class I was taken by Olga Furman called "Paint Your Heart and Soul 2017". The teacher was Basia Zielinska. But the inspiration from the class stopped with the background. My spirit and higher self wanted to take me on a totally different journey. 

I had been going through some deep inner healing work surrounding my relationship with my father, All my life I sought my father's approval as all daughters do. But my father was a 6'6" stoic man.  He devoted his life to be a college professor and never really spent any time with my two brothers are me. I lost myself in trying to make my father happy. Finally one day he told me that I not only hadn't done anything to please him, I never would. A lightbulb finally went off in my head. "WHAT? ALL THIS TIME I WAS TRYING TO PLEASE YOU WAS COMPLETELY WASTED?  Although it has taken me several years to grieve this loss, I am finally pulling myself out of the hole I had fallen in since I was a small child. Everyday I have to pull back inward to make sure my inner child is loved. But finally I learned that I am the mother and father now. Now I can give her the love from the inside out. The tears flowed as I made this piece. I released so much old stuck energy. 

~This piece of art is a symbol of transformation. It incorporates and blends the energies of fire which burns up the old out grown parts of our selves, along with the healing and cleansing power of water which releases the muck through the tears of grief, and the freedom that the winds of change bring as they yeah us how to fly while still being grounded in the presence of the Earth.

 

~"If nothing ever changed, there would be no butterflies."

Above are my speed painting video of the process. The one on the rightis a shorter one minute version.

I do recommend watching the longer though because it is of one of my favorite songs by the Counting Crows.

"Letting Go Doesn't Mean Giving Up"

This painting was inspired by the series called "The Tudors". I was mesmerized by Natalie Dormer's performance as Anne Boleyn. She has these very intriguing eyes that pull you in. I also was inspired by a class I was taking online called "Paint Your Heart and Soul". The teacher was Lucy Chen and she was inspiring us to break out of our comfort zone by painting a hand. I was so out of my comfort zone. I had to take a picture and paint my own hand which is very large. I have extra long fingers.  Although I was not thrilled with the results I knew it was as far as I could go at this time. 

I definitely need to practice hands more often!

The motivation for this painting came from a promise to myself to let go of things that are not working in my life so I can see another way to do things. The symbol is in her reading a letter and pondering on letting it all go. Enough is enough. 

Here is a short video showing a couple of stages. 

Adele Inspired

This painting was created and inspired by my love for Adele's music. I was turned onto her music several years ago by my oldest daughter Natalie. She and I ,along with my other daughter, Mary Kathryn, were very fortunate to be able to go to her 2016 Hello Concert in Nashville Tennessee. When I returned from the trip I was so inspired to create this painting for myself. I have added  a short video I created of the process and snaps from the concert.

Hope you enjoy.  

I am taking an Online Class called "Paint Your Heart & Soul"

This wonderful online art class by Olga Furman called "Paint Your Heart and Soul" is inspiring me to find my artistic voice again.  After going through many changes within myself as well as on the outside over the last 2 years, I am finally finding some balance again. My husband and I moved  two years ago out of our home state where we spent our entire lives to a beautiful new dream home and new life. Although the transition has offered us space and time to grow spiritually, individually and in our relationship it has also brought a sense of loss. As one chapter of our lives was closing a brand new adventure was beginning.  During this time within my cocoon, I temporary lost my artistic voice but now that I am beginning to break free with my new wings.  This online class is helping me to see the world with fresh eyes.

If you are interest in Olga's class click here. 

http://olgafurmanart.blogspot.com

Here are a few pieces I created from the lessons. 

 

 This is the first time I have ever used charcoals and tinted paper. I found the charcoal most forgiving and I look forward to doing more portraits in the near future. It is not easy to face my fears within to make art. If I am blocked in anyway I cannot coax myself into facing my fears and letting go so I can create.  Art always takes me on a journey within, a healing journey. It can be quite scary to visit these places I didn't even know existed.  I see the sadness in her eyes.

This is the first time I have ever used charcoals and tinted paper. I found the charcoal most forgiving and I look forward to doing more portraits in the near future. It is not easy to face my fears within to make art. If I am blocked in anyway I cannot coax myself into facing my fears and letting go so I can create.  Art always takes me on a journey within, a healing journey. It can be quite scary to visit these places I didn't even know existed.  I see the sadness in her eyes.

 This exercise was about connecting with animal totems that speak to us. Since I have been working with the trinity of the inner child, mother and father within I wanted to use the Lion to represent the spirit or higher consciousness. Through the innocence of the child, the emotional strength of the mother along with the courage of the father we embrace our full self. 

This exercise was about connecting with animal totems that speak to us. Since I have been working with the trinity of the inner child, mother and father within I wanted to use the Lion to represent the spirit or higher consciousness. Through the innocence of the child, the emotional strength of the mother along with the courage of the father we embrace our full self. 

 This exercise was quite fun. Although in this print you cannot see all the layers of color that were created, in person they show through much more clearly. What was fun about this project was how I intuitively knew there was an angel of fairy that wanted to show up before I actually saw her. Then the next day I looked and saw her in the background. I sketch an outline of her and then when I started painting her in I noticed water was coming from her hands. So this painting was already there. I just brought out what wanted to come out. This happens quite often when I paint. At the very least, some part of my art journey always incorporates this process. It is such an intimate conversation with my spirit and higher self. Much like a lesson I need to learn. 

This exercise was quite fun. Although in this print you cannot see all the layers of color that were created, in person they show through much more clearly. What was fun about this project was how I intuitively knew there was an angel of fairy that wanted to show up before I actually saw her. Then the next day I looked and saw her in the background. I sketch an outline of her and then when I started painting her in I noticed water was coming from her hands. So this painting was already there. I just brought out what wanted to come out. This happens quite often when I paint. At the very least, some part of my art journey always incorporates this process. It is such an intimate conversation with my spirit and higher self. Much like a lesson I need to learn. 

Embrace Your Wisdom

As I enter my third act in life,  a period I think of as 'Embracing Your Wisdom' stage, I find myself experiencing what some might call a life review,  as if I were dying. I'm not dying (at least as far as I know) but I am allowing myself to go through the same process many experience as near death, the deep reviewing of life and making peace with my decisions and choices.  I want to be peaceful with myself and my past so that I can enter a more freeing state of mind and body.  I don't think we have to wait for death or have a near death experience to learn  some really deep and important lessons from our life.

*Death is not the opposite of life,
it is a part of it. 

Even though I believe death is a natural process of life as is birth, I used to turn my head away from death's lessons. What a shame too because I think death and birth are our greatest teachers for how to truly live. I have always felt more alive when embracing a newborn baby but I must admit I felt like I was going to die when saying goodbye to a love one. Yet goodbyes always remind me to treasure my limited time on Earth. Saying goodbye has never been as easy as saying hello.  So I thought, doesn't it make sense to want to learn how to let go more gracefully? Even though I have always had a underlining desire to study death and dying I also had a fierce resistance to it as well.

This all change when my dear mother-in-law, (who was like a mother to me) made her transition.  I felt like it was the most beautiful gift she could have given to me. She moved through the entire process with the most beautiful grace and love. She never complained or displayed a sense of fear. I learned so much about the natural process of dying. Of course I know a lot of this had to do with the fact that she was ready to let go. She had lived a full life without regrets. I learned so much about life by facing my fear of death. 

One of my favorite memories was also one of the last times she was conscious with us.  My daughter had asked to buy a Christmas music card for her. I will never forget her display of pure joy and wonderment like an innocent child opening her first gift. As she smiled and looked around the room at everyone barking orders of how she should do this or that or what they could do for her not realizing her time with us was now very limited, she said, "this is a very busy world." I knew she had already been in and out of this world. I will never forget how she cherished that simple musical card, opening it again and again to hear its magic. She embraced it as if it contained the entire world. No one noticed her pure joy except my daughters and me. Yes, it was a fleeting moment but it will also last my entire lifetime. It was such a wonderful reminder of how to cherish the simple joys of life, for they are truly the most treasured gifts of all. 

I know death feels like it steals away our hope while birth feels like it gives us hope, but I am beginning to see that both can give us hope and teach us how to live...truly live our lives. That is if we are brave enough to experience these gifts more intimately. 

Through my own internal life review process I am learning to forgive myself for things I did to myself and to others. This is not an easy journey. Whether we are called to learn about ourselves inwardly or outwardly much of the same things can be learned. For me the call just got louder and stronger until I finally let go of the resistance. Was I being guided or even pushed inward? Maybe, I don't think I would consciously choose to walk this scary path but I am learning more than I thought I could about myself. In my youth, I am sure the thought never crossed my mind to look backwards, I was too busy climbing smaller mountains.  There was more in front from which to learn than there was from behind. But now I find self-reflection to be a more gentle and graceful way to see not only where I have been but also to plan where I choose to go.

Does it take courage to muster the strength to dive into the shadows of my past so that I can mine the pearls of wisdom within?

Absolutely! Tremendous courage.

But it takes even more courage to allow myself to share my process for all to see and judge if they so choose.

Birth is not the beginning
nor is death the end.

On a side note. Yesterday I was talking to a Hospice worker named Emily about my aunt's death directive and how I wanted her to be comfortable and without pain but also to allow her to have a natural parting, on her on terms. This was how my aunt lived and how she wanted to leave this world. I told Emily that my aunt has always been very strong and I wanted her 'will' to be the guideline. I said I know the world is still so afraid of death and that is why they try to control it so much. which actually does not allow the individual to go in peace and on their own terms. There is a selfishness about the way we try to control death which is often misguided as compassion. Emily and I talked so more and she said, "you should be a Hospice worker. Few understand the death process and your gifts are so needed." I had thought of volunteering before.  However I still take too much emotional energy of others so it would not be healthy for me at this time. 

Wouldn't it be wonderful if one day we understood death more and feared it less? If we were not so selfish about our loves ones being called home just as the other side misses the love ones being born here. If we realized that everyone on a higher level knows they are going home and on deeper level are ready for the transition. Most often our love ones try to tell us on some level about a week, a month or the last time they saw us before their departure that they love us. It is almost like their goodbye. It might be something they said or they might come in a dream. Some may even connect with us after their departure, like in a dream or some form to say, "I am okay". 

I think we are having more and more near death experiences due to the technology that allows us to bring people back after their heart stops. I am sure we are also ready to face death more. Not only are we very thankful that we can saves lives but maybe this ability to bring people back from death is also teaching us some very valuable lessons. Every near death experience I have had the honor of reading or listening to had many things in common, but one of the most important is the individuals come back unafraid of death as well as a deep appreciation for life and for others. They often change their jobs to serve others. I think that should ease our pain and fear about death a little.

 

What the caterpillar calls the end of the world the master calls a butterfly.
— Richard Bach

Embracing and Comforting the Lost Inner Child

Today with my inner child, as well as my adult self, I am ready to take a new step into the next chapter of my life. I am 57 years old and I have a brand new page to fill. Although I do not know what will come next, I am finally ready to still the waters within so that the void can be filled.

Twenty-nine years ago, I woke up and realized that the path I was on was not taking me where I wanted to go. I had a toddler to protect and raise. I was now a mother.  For the next several years as a young adult, I tried to follow my mom and dad's way of living while adding only a few new things I was learning along the way.  The pressure to please others let me stifled and trapped within the walls I had built to protect myself. These walls were now becoming my prison not my protection. 

Finally nine years later I realized I needed to take another independent step towards my own truth and path. This is when I met a soul friend who was the perfect reflection for me to see the lost parts I needed to reclaim and the outgrown things in my life I needed to let go. Together we peeled back layers upon layers of our own old wounds and old outgrown patterns. As we dove down into the shadows of our past we got closer and closer to our true and pure essence within. But the torrent winds of change drudge up old fears of abandonment. These fears dug their claws in. The rebellion got louder and louder the closer we got within. Finally we found our very wounded inner child who was scared and alone.  What to do now? That was the haunting question.

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Two years ago, I moved away from all that I knew. I left behind: my hometown, my adult home of twenty-six years, my parents who pushed me away, my role of motherhood and being the matriarch who cleaned out all the emotional garbage for our family and restored the peace, my artistic voice,  and the building of a small art partnership with my oldest daughter as well as the role of a teacher for my youngest daughter.  My house was a bustle of energy. Everyone was at home 24/7, including my husband, until one day I woke up and looked around, nothing was the same. There was a deafening silence and heaviness but mostly there was an emptiness and void.

So I did the only thing I could do, I let the unthawing begin and I allowed the tears to flow. Everyday the rainstorm came flooding down. But every day I picked myself up after the storm had settled and walked toward the sunshine. The rainbows didn't come but I became more peaceful with the storms. I listened to the stillness in between storms. I stared into the bone chilling reflections of the mirror and found lost parts within myself.

Finally a small frightened and lost child within began to quietly speak to me. She was cold and lonely. I had left this fragmented part of my inner child alone long ago so that I could take care of the needs of my mother, a role reversal so to speak. I left a part of my inner child in the cold in order to survive in a fractured home. Frozen and trapped in a cage within my heart this inner child held my hopes and dreams. She also held my self-love and self-belief. Patiently waiting within for the day I would become strong enough to find her and free her from the cold isolation of abandonment.  Finally she could cry out to be heard and finally I could hear her.

Today I can hear her loud and clearly.  As I rebuild my trust with her I know she will guide me to the next step for she holds the keys to unlock doors I have yet to step in. 

    Can you hear your inner child?

An 'Old Tale' retold in a new way

Little Red Riding Hood

What we most fear doing is usually what we most need to do.

“Face our fears ...

Live our dreams.”

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Wearing a special red cloak of inner strength and power, Little Red Riding Hood sets out on a journey to claim her independence. She knows that in order to achieve real self-empowerment she must conquer some of her greatest fears in the forest of her past. The time has come for her to let go of her dependency on external relationships so that she can reclaim her own confidence and courage.  

As soon as Little Red steps into the dark woods, the snow begins to fall, casting an eerie veil over everything.  Submerged in the dark silence of the frozen forest she immediately feels the separation from All That Is. Everything collapses inward until it feels like a dark hole compressing onto her. Although the lonely darkness feels like an abyss of bone chilling madness, there is a part of Little Red that still remembers she is never truly alone, for perched on her shoulder is the white dove of Divine Guidance.

Cautiously moving further into the forest, Little Red shudders from the cold and from the deafening silence surrounding her. Unable to take another step forward, she slips to the ground and sleep creeps in as her awareness begins to fade away. In the veil of sleep, her fears rise up and cast a dreary dark dreamscape.  Although she cannot see anything, she feels a shadowy figure lurking behind her.  The shadow follows her everywhere she goes. She feels like a prisoner in her own heartbeat. Frozen with fear, she cannot speak or even run away, for she realizes that there is no place to hide. Finally, she wakes up from the torment and calls out into the darkness, “what do you want from me?” All she hears is the pounding of her own heartbeat.

Again she ask in a much louder and more confident voice, “what do you want?” In the stillness of the forest, she breathes in a deep breath and quiets her mind. Echoing from the deep recesses of darkness, she hears a loud barking sound. It gets louder and louder. She tries to cover her ears but nothing can block out the deafening sounds. As the shadow creeps closer and closer, she can barely stand in her own skin. She takes another deep breath and starts to shake. Her whole body begins to tremble.

Too weak to stand, she falls back into the snow as an explosion of tears erupt from the deep recesses of her body and mind. As she wails and wails from the depths of her soul she releases years of pinned up grief and and sadness.  

Finally exhausted by her tears, Little Red Riding Hood surrenders to a calm cleansing breeze which flows over her body.  Somewhere close by, she hears a faint barking sound. Listening intently, she manages to hear a soft yet angry message rising out of the barking. As she focuses more closely she realizes that the sound is actually flowing out of her own heart. It is not barking sounds but rather a small child sobbing within. Startled and confused, she ask again, “what do you want?” To her astonishment she hears, “you abandoned me in my time of need and you pushed me away when I most needed your love. You moved on with life without me. How can I trust you to be there for me? How can I share my gifts with you when you will not listen to me? You worry about the entire world but you do not think of me. Don’t you know that I am what you seek, for everything in your world comes from within and is reflected out?”

Realizing this voice is her own frightened and lost inner child, Little Red collapses further into deep anguish and despair. She wonders how this child within, who was abandoned so long ago, will ever forgive her. With tears streaming down her face, she gently rocks her inner child back and forth vowing to honor and protect her as best she can in the future.  Finally LIttle Red realizes that the love she has been seeking externally, has been right inside herself all along.

Thoroughly exhausted yet more confident and empowered, Little Red Riding Hood emerges out of the forest of darkness. As soon as she stands in the clearing with the sun shining through, the snow begins to stop. Feeling a  presence behind her Little Red takes a deep breath in and out. No longer fearful of the shadow, she realizes it was just a messenger delivering what she long wanted to remember. She is aware that there will be times where she will fall back asleep, however, since she found her way through the forest of darkness once, she is confident that she will be able to wake up and walk through it again. Together with the child that lives in her heart, she moves forward on her journey of life, creating new adventures and dreams one step at a time.

 

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Charlie, The Caterpillar "A Journey to the Heart"

I am exhilarated about this new project my inner spirit and higher self has rewarded me. After going through a major life transition (moving to another state and going through the "out of nest" chapter of my life) I finally heard a small voice inside say, "I want an original idea of my own! I want to write and illustrate an original story!" So I meditated and prayed and then let it go. Finally the day came. I was unaware that my whole life has been leading me to this very moment. So when the story popped into of my head, I shouted with pure joy!

I have always admired and collected things with the butterfly symbol. I think everyone adores the butterfly and it is well known around the world to be the symbol of transformation . What better symbol, right? A caterpillar going within its cocoon and emerging with majestic wings. But I think few realize that it is the caterpillar that does all the work and transformation.

Although I didn't know it at the time, I feel like this story reflects my life's journey. It is as if it is coming through as a direct conversation with my higher self. The funny thing is that the story is set up as a conversation and life review of caterpillar with his higher self. When the name, Charlie, popped into my mind, it occurred to me that my high school friend used to call me Charlie.

Life is such an amazing journey.

"We truly are the dreamer of dreams."

My Little quotes.

Each of my paintings has taught me a specific lesson, awareness or story.  After years of going within, I finally have been able to edit each message into a few simple lines while still capturing the purest essence of the paintings.